It started innocent
I was captivated by your smile
I was pulled in by the mere thought of being loved
I thought that if I felt wanted I would be okay
I thought I was okay
I wasn't okay
You pulled me in while you were drowning
How do you expect me to save you if I barely save my self
All wanted was love
Now look what you've done
Are you satisfied with the picture that you've painted with my blood

It was innocent
I saw your face and I remembered how I felt love
I wanted to feel loved again
I missed him
I used you to fill that void that he left
It started with a sip then a glass next thing I know the bottle is gone
It felt like every touch you made my heart race
Like every kiss would last forever until you were drinking everyday
I didn't know the sober you
I lost you I loved you
I want you but you're too far gone

I'm afraid to say I love you because all the love I've ever felt has just hurt
I never was taught how to love
How am I supposed to have stable relationships
I don't know what it means anymore
I know what love feels like
Falling in love after you've been in love is scarier than falling out of love
You never really fall out of love
There will always be the smells the songs the touch that will Always be a part of you
I try to escape my own skin but I can't
I can't forget those nights
Those words
And those feelings
To be loved
To want to be full
But never actually being