God and it hit me like a ton of bricks
Right in my face
As soon as I saw the missed call
He's gone
The call back lasted 30 seconds.
They're pulling out now
I managed to get a strangled
"it's okay, i understand, okay"
I could feel the wave coming
Within minutes of the end of the call
Uncontrollable sobs wrack my body
coming in waves upon wave
i shake and I cry
i an't breathe
i can't see
just gasps upon gasps
of hot wet tears
and all i can think of
is never again
I will never see him again
Sure we can talk visits
Sure we an talk over facebook
but even that will eventually fade
And I can't help but wonder
why the fuck am I taking this so hard?
After everything he put me through
after everything he's done
why the fuck am I curled up
Shaking
sweating
hot tears flooding out of my eyes
Gasping for breath
I've gone through this a million times with other people
I've gone over this moment in my head
And I always knew it would be forever
But the thought of Never
Takes my breath away