one day I wish to escape your gravity.

your own special poison,
forbidden fruit which, (I desire completely)
chokes with each bite.
your overwhelmming entirety,
suffocating.

I crave your mouth, your eyes, your approval
validate me!
the thought hangs heavy beneath my words


I have flung open all the doors and windows of my heart
I shout down to you on the sidewalk
come in!
you do not enter, nor allow me into yours.

at last, when I have had enough,
(I am strong, I can walk away)
you fill my ears with syrupy sweetness.
I should be sick
but I drink instead.

I wonder what became of the woman I used to be