i couldnt say whether it happened overnight
or over the time span of a year
but it all started when
i stayed in a motel room
one i barely knew
one that sure knew how to treat its guests
it said there was no vacancy
but i dont play by the rules
at first it felt nice to get away but
i got myself into a room so fast i had to do a double take
however, at the time i liked what i saw
and it quickly became a new home
the cigarette smoke that once made me nauseous
now enticed me
i didnt even mind the mattress
as long as i was in the owners arms
i thought it was a perfect fit
but the room started to get dim
i started to turn the **** for months
not realizing i didnt have the keys
i didnt have control
so i tore up curtains
and kicked at the walls
never too hard
always sure to patch it up
but the motel had enough problems
and didnt need a flaw in its business
so my stay was up
but the vacancy inside me wasnt
and it was then my sheets that became scratchy
my hair that smelt like cigarette smoke
you see,
i left the motel
but the motel never left me