You know it doesnt hurt anymore
The distance I mean
The constant brain drain
As my mind wandered...
And as my mind wonders...

The pains not so shrill anymore.
Cutting like a blunt knife
Dulled by the smiles
Of the new found lives
I call my friends

The loves still there though
Suppressed
Compressed
Caring what happens
But always from a distance.

It's not my place
It's not my race
Most importantly
I'm no longer here in case

In case you change your mind
My minds made up.
What we had was had.
No going back

No bridge to cross
Nothing to rebuild
We just wave from the river banks
Friends... from a distance....

Always there...
Trying to be fair....
But no longer intertwined
Like vines..
Giving supporting
At every twist in the line.

More like sunflowers
Looking forward
Faces reflecting the sun's rays
Alone
Side by side...