I am writing nothing. Contentment soothes my soul but stops my hand on the page. Memories of you make me smile And the strong emotions of Yesterday are forgotten As you and I together Ease three months of torture At your hand. My mind is young but I have scars still, from Both them and you. After fighting through mud and swamp To reach where I am now I have come out clean. The dirt and muck must have Gone somewhere. We can't find them And are okay with pretending They aren't there. I look to the future and, for The first time I see nothing. Not you, or me, or anyone else. Swirling silver and white With no definite borders or contours Is all our futures hold. The relief of a blank future That we can fill in as we choose Has soothed my soul And stopped my hand on the page. My hand returns to page and I can again express the worry and The guilt and The doubt and The fear. My words are a sign that There is something in need of diagnosis. What is our diagnosis?