I tried so hard holding on, my heart was aching but you moved on, we used to be friends I thought we could make amends.
Start all over again your heart was mine to win. You claimed to be too busy, couldn't find time to even text me, made me feel like I was going crazy, lying in bed so lonely, just wanted you to hold me.
That's now the old me, no longer hearing voices, telling me I'm out of choices, harming yourself is the only way, that will surely make them pay, started agreeing with them much to my dismay, but I've kept those demons at bay.
Went through nights of binging, in the morning my stomach was cringing, popping pills to distract me from pain, this is the furthest I was to sane. No amount of time will make me forget you, there's always a place in my heart meant for you.
The memories we shared, like our minds were paired, makes me want to get impaired for how much I cared, the thoughts still hurt, makes me wanna get put in the dirt, all I needed was your love, could've made me rise above, but that's no longer reality, that sounds like a fallacy, you almost became the end of me.
But that's alright for now, I'll press on with my head unbowed, I've made my vows, the rain soaking my brows, on these lonely nights I walk the city lights, the wind bites as I gaze at taillights. The rain on my face, finally filled with grace.