i used to write poems about our reunion in some brooklyn cafe before i knew what distance between us actually was. no matter how many times it happens, i am amazed at the capacity of human beings to grow together and grow apart. what i’m trying to say is, i miss you.
i used to connect the dots of your freckles while you spent hours coaxing food into my stubborn mouth i was restless and cynical and i would never tell you when anything was wrong you had more patience with me than i deserved
i’ve been convincing myself for years that you’re nothing more than an old wound, but the truth is there’s a part of me that won’t ever make sense unless someday, somehow i see you again. there is a small place in my heart that has never stopped waiting (and i can’t quite convince it that you are irretrievably gone)
so maybe it isn’t wrong, maybe one day we’ll find our way together again and you’ll have grown our your beard and i’ll have cut off my hair and i swear maybe you’ll be wearing those old jeans and we’ll talk about the way i used to untie your shoelaces under the lunch table
(as if i wouldn’t still drop everything and marry you if you would only ask)