I never thought life could be this free.
I have my beautiful girlfriend. . Soon to be fiance... and my precious daughter T¡nA.

Who would have thought my steps of growth would leave me here.. but I'm here.

First off, let me tell you about my travels momma.

I finally went back to school and earned my college degree. I know, it took me long enough. You know how you kept telling me to earn my degree with honors.... well I'm at the top of my class!!!

I know right. I finally put full motivation and focus towards my studies for once, instead of the wrong things.

I no longer care what my friends think momma, they clown me for the way I dress and speak constantly, but I can tell they're proud of me.

Oh, and I got the job !!! He gave me the senior tech position right on the spot. Oh and the prez of the headquarters is black .. don't use emojis when you reply back ma..  you overuse them all the time lol.

He told me I was exactly what he was look for. I "fit the mold of excellence!".......
OK, he didn't say that lol. He did say something like that, but the words/Grammer he uses is crazy. Crazy in a good way though.  But anyway, I love you mom, you continue to motivate and inspire me beyond measure. I will make you proud.

Now my beautiful wife..
I mean fiance....
Well gf, for now lol.
I finally took your advice. I'm actually chasing my dreams leah.
Using my brain for good, for once.
I owe you my life best friend. I owe everything to you.
You are light and blessing personified.
Because of you, I knew I had to buckle down and work my a^^ off... (thought you was catch me cursing huh ? No swear jar for me luv).
But, all seriousness. I got the job baby! I already told mom about it, well kinda..
That's not the biggest news though..
On my way home, I bought something.
Something that could change our lives forever.

Dear T¡Na, you are and will always be my greatest creation.

I won't be there on your next birthday. I'm going away for some time. On this new journey I will be away from you, grandma, & mommy.

It's not by choice, but I did try my hardest to avoid the light. Tears are covering my eyes as write this to you.

I won't be able to wipe your eyes when you cry, I won't be able to dance with you at daddy dance and you won't be able to hear my screams when they call your name for graduation.
As you walk across the stage. I will not be there ... physically

But I will be there.
I am in the afterlife.
I will not go to the light until I see that you don't need me every step of the way.

I know you're wondering what happened.
The person that took my life thought I was someone else.
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time my love.
I should have just went home. I'm sorry.
I know, don't cry baby.

This life that I'm choosing now is the in between, but whenever any of you need me just call my name.  

And I'll be there.
I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill our dreams.

I just wish you could read this letter.