I'm breaking down Slowly but constantly I feel like the world is slowly catching up To my big talk "I'm never going to be like them" I would say But I'm slowly starting to believe that's a lie It feels like I'm losing my confidence day after day and I really don't know where it's going I've always had it, it's been my best friend through everything But why at a time I need it most does it seem to escape I'm scared because I don't know how things are going to turn out I want to go back to my old ways but I know I can't That would just prove I'm worthless even more Something in my head is telling me that I'm worthless and I'm starting to believe it She tells me I'm not and that I'm worth a million stars in every plant but she doesn't know what this life is like I'm glad she doesn't but sometimes I wish she did so she could understand more She's my rainbow on rainy days and my light I just want to be alone, away from everything with her just for a little bit I want pure happiness all the time When I see her that's what I see She helps me forget and forgive She's seen me cry and laugh and both at the same time She's always dries my tears And holds me tight And talking about her just made me forget what I was really writing about And that's love