I'm breaking down
Slowly but constantly  
I feel like the world is slowly catching up
To my big talk
"I'm never going to be like them" I would say
But I'm slowly starting to believe that's a lie
It feels like I'm losing my confidence day after day and I really don't know where it's going
I've always had it, it's been my best friend through everything
But why at a time I need it most does it seem to escape
I'm scared because I don't know how things are going to turn out
I want to go back to my old ways but I know I can't
That would just prove I'm worthless even more
Something  in my head is telling me that I'm worthless and I'm starting to believe it
She tells me I'm not and that I'm worth a million stars in every plant but she doesn't know what this life is like
I'm glad she doesn't but sometimes I wish she did so she could understand more
She's my rainbow on rainy days and my light
I just want to be alone, away from everything with her just for a little bit
I want pure happiness all the time
When I see her that's what I see
She helps me forget and forgive
She's seen me cry and laugh and both at the same time
She's always dries my tears
And holds me tight
And talking about her just made me forget what I was really writing about
And that's love