She's sitting.
her tears hitting the page.
one. two. one. two.
turn off the World.
shut it all down.
turn on the music.
let it speak for you.
ignore that phone, baby.
don't answer that call.
don't want him to hear those sobs.
it's late.
turn up the music louder.
three. four. three. four.
let it drown you.
don't feel.
cheeks streaked with wet.
tissues won't work.
sogged up.
there's too many coming.
sit in the middle.
it's safer there.
five. six. five. six.
curl up in that ball, baby girl.
feel that pain.
open those scars.
relive those moments.
cry.
cry till you're numb.
that's the only way.
feels good right?
no more pain.
seven. eight. seven. eight.
think again.
you cried yourself to sleep again.
baby girl, you're breaking apart.
do you know what's happening?
you were wrong.
you messed up.
falling for those lousy tricks.
how dare you fall?
nine. ten. nine. ten.
sleep.
it is what death feels like.
nothing.
morning.
searing pain. chest hurts.
puffy eyes.
cold. wet. cold. wet.
normal.
practice that smile.
till it reaches those eyes.
school.
laugh. smile. laugh. smile.
no one knows.
no one sees.
notice me!
these dull eyes. lost their sparkle.
this broken smile.
home.
hold it in.
don't fall. don't fall. victim.
do your work.
you aren't out yet.
night.
repeat.
one. two. one. two.