When I was a child, and the sun rose up,
I anticipated it's arrival
It represented opportunity to take in new life
A chance to forget, thinking,
maybe the burdens I bared, could surely fall away
Rays of renewal, sloughing off the shame of secrets
by warming my back and face
I could be the person I was supposed to be, school yard, macaroni art, ***** elbows and knees
playground sweat still dripping, after the teacher called us to come inside.
When I was a child, and the sun rose up
There was still dirt on my elbows and knees
When the sun rose up,
There was no solace in the warmth on my face
It was bright, stinging, in my eyes, blinding
When the sun rose up,
You were still there
This wasn't going to be a new day,
The sun wasn't going to take away the sins you left me with
Sunlight was still Night,
Only, you were no longer using the shadow of evening to hide
You were standing tall, walking proud, All Knowing
that you could hide in plain sight
For who would question your Love for a child?
Day time nightmares, my eyes still open, reality, My heart sinking deep
Your guilt, your chance of getting caught, took your life..
& Now when the sun rises up,
I am free