and it seems as though im losing a war once again
at first with the world
and now with you
a battle begun by your cold piercing words
a continuous struggle to save myself from letting you go
and a constant reminder that no matter how many times we say we’re better off alone
convincing ourselves solitude- our only friend
an excuse that prevents us both from harming the other
we’re both in need of each other

i throw knives
slicing every last piece of forgiveness you’ll have for me
you shoot your gun
aiming at my memory
hoping to unleash all the suffering you’ve caused me
i drop bombs
seizing your innocence and kindness
leaving you nothing but bitterness and despair
you stab me with daggers
watching me howl in terror and confusion
i release arrows
attacking your mind like a target
each one caving in deeper than the last

and what is left is the horrific image of who we’ve become
my body, a temple with demons oozing out of it
yours- a crime scene left to be forgotten
i stared longingly into your eyes and saw a bond thats now estranged
an inferno that is nothing but an utter flare
a love that is now hatred
a friend- now an enemy

one more second together and we’d suffocate each other with all the words we didn’t say
one last day together and we’d have nothing to share but tears and regrets
….
a lifetime together-  and we would be engulfed by Hades himself
-c. alejandra