Claudia knows Potslam fancies her. She knows he would like to. She knows other men watch her pass. Knows they’d like to touch her ***. Claudia wants just to be loved.
Wants the kind of love in those magazines she reads. Potslam says he loves her but it’s all cheap talk. His eyes and mouth say otherwise.
She sees it in his eyes. That first date as she waited other men wolf whistled.
Eyed her. If eyes could undress he’d be **** catching the cold air standing there. Mother said men were all the same.
Father misunderstood the essence of woman. His history of failures hammered and impinged on bone and skin.
Claudia sits and lights her smoke.
Potslam talks and relates a joke.
She eyes him. Takes in his pitted skin. Wants another to love not **** her. Needs the loving arms and warm caresses. The gentle kisses placed on lips or cheek.
She watches Potslam smoke and exhale. Sees his thick lips give birth to smoke. His yellowed fingers hold the cigarette. He smiles that smile. Shallow as a puddle. He moves in and out of shadow. If only love were there she says inwardly noting him ****.
She feels no love or such no aching or piercing of her delicate heart.