I. Air is cold inside of psychiatric hospitals As it is in any hospital really But in psych wards there is an emphasis on feeling and the temperature dial being set low It raises the hair on your skin straight upwards Like a standing ovation Like you are covered with tiny needles extending from your skin It feels unnaturally raw Exposed even Like your organs have been set out onto a table For strangers with higher degrees of education to poke at In rather uncomfortable temperatures.
II. Then there is the johnny The dressing gown Which reveals the many cuts and bruises you've got under the places that used to be clothed Behold the surface of your body that lives in shadows Hides. That you starve, And scratch, And hate, The people with medical degrees feel every inch of you. Where he felt that night. **** stop. Then there's the needles on your skin again poking out. A defense mechanism You're human porcupine.
III. It's silent as you pace towards your hospital bed No one stirs The window next to your bed has names and words carved in it with nails Passing patients so eager to leave their mark The air is still cold and you lay under thin sheets Feeling every place where the blankets drap over your exposed skin. So where did today go wrong and why Is there a pit within you As you gulp for the chilly air?