I haven’t written in a while, the words seem to escape my mind before reaching my fingers
maybe it’s emptiness, that’s all that it is, you’ve hurt me until I’ve lost all emotions
I used to be a full glass of hope and potential, now I’m half empty
you spilled nearly everything out of me
and somehow even after all that I’ve found a way to be full again
full of pain, full of forgiveness
you took pieces of me, but somehow
I’ve found a way to be whole again
solitary, free, undetermined by anyone’s feelings or thoughts towards me
but even now, when i assume I’m better than ever, i get these waves again
and i used to not mind drowning, not at all
but now i suffocate
because after a long routine of opening the windows of my heart
and slowly, heavily taking a mouthful of fresh air
my lungs close in like I’ve never practiced breathing without you