I'm sick of all this bull... I'm sick of trying to be strong. I'm sick of being the strong one.  I'm sick of being sad.  I'm sick of acting like I'm ok.  I'm sick of the sad looks I get:  I'm sick of life in general.  I'm so so sick of people saying he would never had left Audi.  What the hell I know that but what about me?? Yes I'm being selfish...  What the hell about me.... I was with Maynard for over 12 years... he was my rock, my world my everything.  I'm just so tired of everything.