oh god i miss you
but talking to you hurts
a first day of school hearse
kind hurt like a little boy
abandoned at the mall like
like bein told youll never grow tall like
like bein told you never cared at all like
like theres a monkey in my brain
and he is rattling his cage
he sparks fear and rage
equal parts love and hate
i thought this was fate
guess it was fake
guess ill keep looking for somethin real
not a done deal no shortcuts
no inspiration pills

i take words like a zombie
taking bullets
like a vet with flashbacks like
a runaway with a knapsack
and half a mil
and a license to ****
torn tshirts show my form
physically born again
not bored again i aint ever been
bored with a person you are always surprising
i think of you when I see the horizon
death rattles of my love
i heard my thoughts like cattle
stomp around in my brain
shield me from this rain
like the hood i dont wear
cause i dont care
and the rain makes my hair look real fine

i dont know why i still come to these sessions
just upsetting my routine
making me think again
sting again make me stink again
I stare them dead in the eyes i feel their glares
i feel burning flares in the
clear white sky of my back
got a whip crack mind
no other kinds of men
like truth like the lying fae
not gonna die today
not gonna try today
lay down dont dress up
talk to the man keep your hands cupped
catch the words he spray try to
keep the thoughts at bay like
i know you were here
i wonder what you said to your friends here
i wonder if it would’ve made me laugh