It feels better
to cry quietly in public
than to howl at home alone.

I feel almost like a ghost,
I don't feel real.

Sometimes,
it is nice not to feel real,
to feel as though
maybe,
this is all a bad dream
that maybe I will wake up soon.

And if it is real...
maybe I will fall asleep soon
and never wake up.

I feel like that would be easy

I feel
like I am halfway there already.