If I could have anything
I would wish for all of my closest eyes
To know where I am when I am alone

I do not go far
I get too close

All the secrets I have kept
And all the pain I have found
I have stowed away for the last winter

If a car ride has only myself in it
It also has a voice no one has ever heard

I have risen and fallen too many times now
I have smiled and answered one too many times
In a veil of white teeth and surface humor

The woods have me because I have told them everything
The flowers keep me because I have confessed

If I could give it away in heaps and piles
If I could just pass it off
Or destroy it
If I could just

It follows me because I am a kind and loving host
And because I would do anything for you

If I turned out
How frightened would you be
No really

If I gave it up
Would you take it
You would be the very first

So much noise

So much noise

So much noise
I can hardly hear the screaming

If anyone knew the decisions I try not to make

If anyone knew