do you think your parents would've gone into medical debt to save you
when you turned blue
if they had known you'd be this way

maybe the money and time
would have been better saved
on someone who wasn't pacing the room
24 years after the fact

looking for something to support
his body weight
a belt around the air vent
where is my pocket knife

born with the same demons & disease
as Pistol Pete
even your heroes are tragic mirrors
you need to talk to somebody

and stop relenting when you go too far
all he wants is for you to feel small
cower and adhere
to a militant narcissist

can't we all just admit this isn't how
it was supposed to go
and I'm the sum of
my own mistakes and fears