to come back to this, after much a long minute, feels like a ***** returned to brothel; perhaps the harshness of the analogy is hype- rbole. won't let a Crowley ****-block me; sun's too bright for that. should shower, but drink wine, and this is perhaps a poor reactionary response; ironic; the ironned-iconic. pressed to be pre-dressed, and no need to cut a styled up-do; the hair isn't quite real, anyhow. all-quite polyeurathane, or polysylvester, or never too keen for poly- anything. now hold up. nah, keep on the struttin' along, there's a better one than you follows a winger's lead. smoking cigarettes at the window while she sleeps; thine own eyes never stop in faltering-rest, then restless-hoping that pen-scrawls, window scraping sides when opened, smoking a cigarette at the window; rattle-restless, hope is a beggar, but we are manifest; choosers can't be beggars.