4:00 AM
So I figured my story had to start somewhere right? Everyone has their story, the reason why they can’t keep going and mine starts tonight, or to be technically correct this morning. After almost six months clean I saw the crimson on my skin again. And now, almost four years from losing Zach I thought about it again. After loving two people I can’t bare to love someone else again. I cannot go through that feeling again of giving my life to someone just for them to leave me for the third time I cannot. So from this day on I am considering the most effective way to end things. Of course I am going to wait until I am off probation so that they cannot save me. Of course they try lol, but on probation they will have more of reason. No clue how I am going to do it yet, but I have a little over five months to plan right? I’m done. I am so ******* done with everything. After July, I will be gone. Guess I am just going to be just another statistic. Oh well. People didn’t care how they made feel so why should I care now?