I'm sorry, I just can't
Leave me alone
I know I have my faults
I'm damaged
No, nothing traumatic happened to me
My life was okay
Nothing great and nothing bad
Just stuck within my bad self image
That I cannot crawl out of
As if anchored to the ocean floor
Suffocating on waves of uncertainty
I know I can't afford to be this afraid
Wasting away the best years of my life
But, it's something greater than myself
And it has possessed every fiber of my being
So, please, leave me be
I will always be alone
I was not meant for this life
Forever alone

Cody Shull, 2017