When will you stop
Stop being you
Be the normal person
The normal you
Where you laughed
Not cried
Was silly
Not stern
All you do is push people
Anger fills you
It's like I'm married to the devil and not you
When can I look into your eyes and see melting roses
Not you walking out on us
You scare the kids and I
But somehow I still want you
It's a curse and a blessing.
Every now and then I take my anger and silent my mind with pain
That only last for a second
It's as if everything in my head all the issues were a sand castle and some little kid who doesn't know better comes over and kicks it over
me watching on the outside
my life crumbling to peices
A kid from gods creation
gods mind
gods soul
put this little kid on earth
He ruined my sand castle; my life
But everything's everything's gone
For a second.
But he didn't know better.  
It's not his fault it's no ones only mine
I built that castle it'll tumble down one day and stay down
But one day no one will be there to build it back up because there will be
No sand.