The numbness that encloses my body like a coffin,
it makes me feel like I have been buried alive.
I know that I should feel angry,
or stressed,
or really anything.
But I don't.
The emotions I once felt,
once came in such a large wave.
It crushed me.
I have built a dam around my emotions.
That is guarded like a fortress,
because even to feel anything,
is too big of a risk.
My thoughts and my actions
are slaves to my emotions.
If that dam surrounding my personal Pandora's Box
were to chip and fall down,
I would cease to be the person I would like everyone to see.
So I talk and act like I am okay,
I put on a mask that repels any questions.
And yet I don't feel like me.
I feel like a robot that has taken my place.
But I don't want to act like I was programmed,
following the same command and actions as everyone else,
everyday,
For I am NOT a robot
I am human.