I've been floating
on a cloud
of denial
and happiness
and like
and maybe love.
But today I had to realize
the cold hard truth
that you shoved in my face
because I needed to see it.

To go from smiling at every sound
to cringing at every word
is a fall as far as the depths of the sea.
But I needed to see
just what I was
and what we were
so I could understand my life
and take off the rose colored lenses.

Friends are the people that see you for who you are.
I had to find out;
I needed to know that I was never going to be
the person I wanted to be.
At least as far as he is concerned.
At least this time.

So breakfast tomorrow will be painful,
because I know a secret
that you have no inkling of.
That this can only end badly.