I'm still laying in bed when it hits me. Relaxed and unthinking. I see him in the corner of my eye but I know, somewhere, it is too late.I hear the band and time splits here. A rush of everything and nothing happening in the same second. I think of a town I left. The streets littered with the people I've promised to not forget. I think of my parents in our old home, in the way they were when I was a child:  soft and smiling. The feel of my soft sheets bring me back to the now. My hair tugs under my head and I'm gone again. I'm with my past loves; I'm with their hair and eyes. They flash behind my eyes, eyes wide with shock, closed in contentment, brimmed with tears. I think of the mistakes I've made, the sleepless nights cold and alone. Just as I am now, nothing and everything has changed. I think of the girl I love now. The one with the soft eyes and steady hands that hold me close. I think of all their miles in my mind. Of all their happiness and as the biting metal lodges in my heart, I don't feel so cold. My eyes flutter shut and they're all holding me, pulling me forward. To a place I know I am safe