I get goodbye glimpses When your voice is like an exhausted father And mine, relentlessly stumbling over apologies Premonitions Of a cold current I'm paddling behind Can't keep up I'm sputtering, Choking, Watching you wade away Without worry You're only 21 How don't you worry? I am 19 With ducks That form more of a m o b Than a row I know It's far easier to blame the tide Than the self ******* it I'm trying Shawn, I promise I'm trying But, you see Adulthood is the branch that taps on my window With the storm To shiver me awake.. I hear you two have tea In tangled talks of a future That doesn't include me Well If it's so I need the definite The finalizing punctuation It's like the cigarette you toss aside Unfinished I get it You don't like endings And I smoke mine to the filter It's like the book That sat on your nightstand for months. With a chapter to go, Past due Is the means to an end You chose The sentence that trailed off Into an all but empty stare (Wait, I was listening)