We were holding hands in the summer and the street was cracked and the clouds were being greedy even through their kindness and their tears turned salty on my cheeks when I looked at him
It became too much; he slipped down the rabbithole and faded like eighty year old newsprint until there wasn’t much left but the tattered shoes I told him to replace months ago and the echo of his last breath on a breeze that was staler than the bread left out on the counter this morning
I saw the things I didn’t want to see, the things he didn’t want me to see, and I wished at that moment for a gallon of bleach to pour into my head just burn it all away