soon enough i'll be below the ground or perhaps decimated into ash and captured in a marble urn in the arms of someone i could never picture not loving or on the mantle of a fireplace in the home of a barely relevant family member claiming they only wanted the best but sincerely because my will included their name.
and it makes you think if anything was ever worth it why be conceived, why hold another living being inside of you for 9 whole months just to watch them burn themselves alive or suffocate while testing the limits in a frozen over lake
my lungs were never really that strong, to be honest, and i might just convince myself of the same to my heart