the wind sings. remorse. regret. indeed. i loved. i hated. in remembrance. i felt your touch again. i felt the warmth again. i saw the red again. i died again. i started to regress. i became weak. i stopped too short. i dropped a tear. i felt emotion again.

this voice. its pounding. defying. haunting me. i need it. i hate it. it fills me and kills me. more than you ever did. i fear. drop it. drag me down. its panting. i cant breathe. i feel confined. so lost. so scared. shivering. bringing me back. realizing. its truth. cold.

your photo. blinding. piercing. killing. defy you. defy you. defy you. its the wrong perception. this isnt you. this isnt me. breathe it in. spit it out. im just a memory. loving the time. im ok now. knowing we had. knowing there once was. still having posession. time after time. sweat. guilt. lust. memories.

i'm ok. i promise.