ever feel alone even when someones there ?
Thats how i feel everyday of my life .
and theres nothing that can be done.

It *****, like most things in this life .
Friendships, Love, ***, and just anything in general .

How can it be possible to be alone, when you are with someone constantly ?
How can it be possible to care for someone so much, but still feel the emptiness that you have always felt ?
How is it possible that everything is "just fine" but really you are deeply screaming inside as in a cry for help ?
How can everything just ****, and not go your way ?
How can everyone try to help you in anyway possible, but none of their solutions do anything for you ?

I wish there was a way to know the answers .
I wish there was a way that this feeling can just disappear .
I wish I just had the happiness that everyone else feels .
I wish I could be the girl that can just look at a simple thing and just smile .

But those times never come.
Never have, never will .

Everything is completely hopeless .
Everything is a lost cause .
Life, Love, and Happiness .
All lost in the shuffle .
Gone before the 19th century even hit .

Everything has been done before.
Everything has been pondered before.
Nothing is new, and nothing can be new.
It's nearly impossible for something to be new now-a-days.

I wish things were normal .
But thats even a lie,
because if they were,
everything would be even more boring than it is now.

Everything is an endless cycle.
Romance taught by movies,
Jokes, written and displayed on t.v. shows .
It all just gets recycled every generation .
Nothing is new. Nothing can ever be new.

So why can't we just think of something to be new ?
I'm sure what i am writing isnt anything new at all .
In fact i know its not .
There are plenty of young people in the world who think the same way,
do the same things,
Live their lives just like me .

It ***** . It honestly does.
So **** it all .
I am completely done.
Im not going to try anymore.
theres no point in it.

I can't make a difference,
no matter how many people say that I can .
Its all just lies.
I am one small person in this large world .
One thing I say,
for example this,
will do nothing .

So **** it all .
Like i stated above .
I am done .