Iam extremely delighted
And iam extreamly down at the same time.
Once you said iam mad!
Now I turn out that I have crossed the level I can get cured.
Here everyone looks at me for a shore to safety.
But I remain hapeless as always.
Looking into the days passed by
I realise you are the reason for both my happiness and sorrows.
Find it tough to know why I see your face at night still.
And cannot understand why I run away from you and hide somewhere even  in dreams, why I look at you from far disguising myself.
I see you feeling blissful with a pillor of support and tiny smiles around.
I saw you looking at me twice.
I said myself "head down and move fast".
Ere the curtain comes down
I wish you all the success and blessings.
when I lay here on this hospital bed with nothing to brood
Listening only to the beep sounds of monitors and infusion pumbs
I have asked for apology many times for all the blunders I have done and spoken.
Now I feel to get rid of this instability.
So come near to me but a bit far from this filthily cot
Hold my hand and say, "you are not mad".