Iam extremely delighted And iam extreamly down at the same time. Once you said iam mad! Now I turn out that I have crossed the level I can get cured. Here everyone looks at me for a shore to safety. But I remain hapeless as always. Looking into the days passed by I realise you are the reason for both my happiness and sorrows. Find it tough to know why I see your face at night still. And cannot understand why I run away from you and hide somewhere even in dreams, why I look at you from far disguising myself. I see you feeling blissful with a pillor of support and tiny smiles around. I saw you looking at me twice. I said myself "head down and move fast". Ere the curtain comes down I wish you all the success and blessings. when I lay here on this hospital bed with nothing to brood Listening only to the beep sounds of monitors and infusion pumbs I have asked for apology many times for all the blunders I have done and spoken. Now I feel to get rid of this instability. So come near to me but a bit far from this filthily cot Hold my hand and say, "you are not mad".