I spend all my time thinking about him until I see him face to face
and suddenly he is absolutely repulsive
I can't look at him anymore
I find all his bad qualities
His bad habits when performing
Mistakes
And I wonder why I loved him

But my feelings don't change a whit
because when he leaves I can't bear to be separated from him
Not see him for another day, another week
And I feel a dagger in my heart
A kick when I'm sprawled out on the floor, bleeding
As he walks down the stairs with her
They hold hands in their minds
for even though they do not touch I can feel their bodies connect
Never think he is staring at you
Across the room
Unless it is obvious