He was robotic
Devoid of human emotion
Illogically logical to a fault was his cover
He never really said where he was coming from
The blanket of positivity he engulfed himself in,
was truly a layer of ********
He could be so sweet when hugging and kissing
Giving so much pleasure with his mouth when it was quiet but busy
His words were daggers in my heart and my mind
Fingers trained to please at certain, very specific times.
Body turned to ice.
Impenetrable walls.
Hiding in his cave.
Hiding in his logic.
Hiding in his work.
Hiding - in how things needed to be, for him.
Communication, smashing my head
against the brick wall of his empty chest.
A Goddess - sitting right in front of him
All her love to give.
He had none for himself, hence, none for her.
He made her think she was crazy.
Unconstant boundaries of steel.
You wasted my time.
I was falling for you, again.
Hardest rejection.
Text, false words, internet.
You're not a real person,
You're a robot with a small *****
So damaged, beyond repair.
No compassion, no understanding.
Hot, Cold, Frozen.
Barred gates.
"You're an *******
So far away.
Goodbye for the second time.
Never resolved.
I still want to understand.