Every night
I always have the same thought
Roaming inside my head
I'm in love with her
I don't know how
Nor do I understand why
But I just know that I am
And every night
I keep trying to understand
My illogical thought process
Cause I know what's happening
Right here in the present
She doesn't see me in the way
That I see her
And I just can never find
Any way in this mind of mines
To just let go
And admit the entire truth
I just talk to her when I can
And pretend that these feelings
Simply don't exist
Like they're my own personal sins
And I'm subjecting myself to punishment
For even nurturing them
Or giving myself a false idea
That maybe one day
Everything will change
And she'll possibly love me
Or I'll possibly move on
But the simple matter is
These thoughts never change
They simply rearrange
And cause me to feel
Such a horrible shame
Like is it really wrong
To be in love
Is it wrong for me
To want her to be happy
For no other reason
Than because I like to see her smile
Is it horrible
To think that she deserves someone
Who will just love her
From behind the scenes
As well as in the full program
Every night
It plays out in my head
And my heart tells me
Just tell her everything
And she'll understand
But how can one understand
Falling in love by sheer instinct
Falling in love and wanting to know
Everything
Falling in love
And not even knowing know
How to hide that fact away
For so long
Simply because you don't want to
Freak the other person out
Or push them away
With that solid truth