I feel so much about so much
I'd like to speak,
But I don't feel like telling a soul.
I don't understand anything anymore,
As if my mind has been overtaken
By somebody else.

I couldn't even tell you
The sensation inside:
It's unexplainable.
I just don't know what to do with it.
Attempting to misplace it,
I just seem to almost drown in it.

Taking things a day at a time,
Because everything else is too scary.
When did life stop being easy?
If I dream you it could save me,
But then you'll go and I'll fall again.

I want to go back to then
So I can change things for myself.
Fix myself and become less broken,
It wasn't my mistakes and I can't go back
All I can do is sit in the chaos.

I make things up for myself
I know my world's not true,
But that doesn't give me the choice to leave it.
They call this coping,
I think it's hurting.

I'm an individual.
What this really means is that
No one will ever get it.
Whatever this emotion is:
Its impressionistic.
And I am all on my own
Surrounded by willing faces,
It still won't suffice.

Please, oh please
Can I dream well tonight?

Sad things haunt me,
They hurt me,
Torture me,
And I can't seem to hide
From it any longer.