what hurts more
being in love with someone you can't have
or
being out of love

what hurts more
knowing how it would end up
and still trying
or
leave with curiosities

what hurts more
being so deeply in love with someone silently
or
not being loved back

what hurts more
the agony of not knowing
or
listen to the harsh truths

what hurts more
to finally able to love
or
not being able to love

what hurts more
being in love with another person
instead of the one in front of you
or
being someone's hidden lover
knowing fully that you are
just his love affair

i know where is this going
sigh.


but is it wrong if i just want to be happy for the first time?
is it wrong to be wanting someone so bad after a long time
why can't i be happy?
am i not deserve the loving and the happiness in this world
can you please stay
please
*stay