Your words laid a gentle stain upon my thoughts.
Even in that moment where I assumed you left,
A shimmering mirage left while looking in the sun,
I felt your words find purchase within my mind.
That's why I'm sitting here now, my half naked
Emotions dangling uselessly at the end of sentences.
Waiting for a word, your words, to cover them up
Like they used to, when smiling was full of appeal.
But I can't complain about love lost and longing for,
When the choices you made inflict changes on me.
Since it seemed a worthwhile cause to change your
Life; back when I thought effort constituted caring.
So, I'll pray for your words to myself in the mirror.
Reminding my eyes of the shape of your mouth.
If only to serve as a kind of temporary pleasure
Before I recall the onset of your tearful goodbye.
Cause I look to the sky at night or in the day
And find the same images conjure from the air.
A red tussled emptiness that denies me a breath.
A love tainted masterpiece designed to depress.
But nothing compares to the words on my brain;
Memories die, pictures erode, a smile is sneaky
Emotions fade, the sun sets, the sun rises, tears dry,
Eyes blink, glass breaks, and my life changes.
But words don't leave my mind, they're always there.
And I'll sit here, whispering them, while I stare
At the sky, the sun, with its brilliant blood-like light,
Eagerly awaiting the moment you return to my sight.