My whole body feels okay but there's something inside of me that scream harder than ever. To be honest, i can't feel my heart beat normally, i can't feel my body in the right place, i can't used my brain correctly, i can't feel my hands do things better. Is it normal? it's just a feeling, my feeling. I think i'm missing something, mysterious thing that i can't discover it yet. Everyday, i wonder if there's something i have to know. Something that meant to be and belong to me in this world. And i know it really breaks my heart to know the fact that i don't belong anywhere and everywhere for this time. I just.. i want to belong somewhere where i could be happy and find peace in myself.