its starting to really hurt this time
its not as cloudy as last time
but im not sure what to do
to stop myself
or if i even really want to

im in a cage of guilt and bones
and i really dont want anyone
to see past my pale pink illusion

ive not felt like a real person in such a long time
and i have already convinced myself
that it would come back
but the bones of the cage rattles
and dig into my skin

the tendrals of guilt and shame and lonliness
wont release my neck
but its not like i would be able to breath anyway

my soulless self will be gone soon
i hope to be released
from the hurt and the cage