I stare up into the dark abyss and wonder, why? why am I here? why am I self tortured. I am supposed to love myself, am I not? Then why am I here, wondering why, Why am I here? The wonder, so big/ Almost endless, I kinda want to cry. Not for any meaning, but I just really just don't know why. I do as i think feels right, what others tell me what is right. Don't mess up, don't be late, don't stop caring for others. But why? Why must I do? I may never find an answer to this question, even in my final moments. Just ignore it, carry on with my day.