love, they said, makes terrible contradictions

they said love makes the heart wild and want to be free,
but it also makes you need a home to find solace in

they said love makes you want to think it through and secure a future
but it also wants you to feel and only feel

they said love gives you the best of happiness, joy, and glee
but it also gives you the worst pains, sorrows, and griefs

facts these may be, i believe fear makes worse contradictions

i'm afraid of living in this world any longer
but i'm also afraid to die

it's not surprising.
fear has always been one step ahead of love