Go outside
smell the smells
travel back to real life
back to that place where you
     think
     analyze
     conclude
     assume
     learn
     evaluate
     re-evaluate

too much thinking

just let it go
     childhood traumas
     (is that word too strong?)
     who is to judge
     when there is no judge
     a free for all
     but all is only two
     the laws of the jungle
Why? should we have to experience this?
What made you think that was a good idea?

Hand cramps, writing too fast
the thin seal has been broken
now it all comes out
     unleashed
     but it's not an animal
     but it's lover has no fetish
     how did the leash get there, in the first place?

too many thoughts
what is deep enough                                                           ­                         what is too shallow
what is too deep
          too analytical
     getting trapped, caught, pushing against the net

a train of thought

     lost
  
     regained

how do we know?
how do we learn
how do we live
       mistakes,
            but they come with regret
     books,
            but they lack experience
     stories

a beautiful escape,
but is that all? Their only substance?
A drug? - rise above
     they transport us, alter our perception of reality
     recreational
     procrastination
     a time killer
so violate
being trapped again,
     escaped from the brain
     but trapped by its thoughts
what is crazy?
can I draw on myself?

a hand cramp