After Hell and back
to hear your voice
all deep and gravely
on the other end
of the phone receiver
makes all the difference
When my belly's empty
and I'm about to collapse
Oh yeah, I already did!
I called you up
biting my lip
and you answered
on the second ring
enthusiastic about
some new job thing
I'm a foodie, I said
I noticed, you answered
I'm a girl with a BIG
appetite, who cares so much
about other people's well-being
that she burns out quicker than
a single sheet of paper
to a lighter's fine flame
when the going gets rough
her thin skin gets tough
what a shame!
After hell and back
there's no more of
the same
is there…?
What's left is but the ash
stuck to the bottom
of the bin in fine dust
and after hell has burnt me
to a crisp and worry seeps in
I try to not cry
but tears invade the corners
of my eyes
stinging and ringing
a fear so contrite
but if I avoid the things
that scare me
I'll never find freedom
and that's all my charred
feet want--release from
first time jitters--
and you're real
you're actually real
and that's the scariest part of all
it really is time now
to break down my wall