I fell in love with you for a minute on a stranger's couch funny whip its with a derby girl a shameless makeout sesh in front of another lesbian and a couple strange bodies disconnected poetry and some ***** in a plastic cup stolen metal chairs in various colors her braids her shaved head a symphony to my defeat I'm half-way out the door but I can't get up off this couch she's taking my key and pretty soon my car is gone my so-called girlfriend leaves me tearstained voicemails but while you're here your lips make me forget every promise I made this girl she said where you go I go how quickly we forget when we find ourselves in the arms of another and just like everything else the promise disappears an evaporated drop of rain from the side window of my re-poed car I need to get that ink off I need to get inked to sober up before A.A. to eat before this adderall eats my insides I want to feel a lot more full a lot more ******* full say goodbye you never knew me a $2 bus ride takes me where I need to be freezing hands and the itchy scars I sliced into my arm in the wrong place the wrong direction I was never right to begin with a text message at 2AM "stay safe" that's the extent to which I'm cared for and that's good enough for me just so long as I can afford smokes and the key to my car is safely under the mat