I miss him God, I miss him so much. But I know I don't need him. And he sure as hell doesn't deserve me. I'm not the type to say I'm better than anyone. But I know my worth. And I know I'm worth more than to have a boy cheat on me and leave me for a group of guys and parties. I know I'm worth more than the excuses I made up for him when he kissed anther girl, when he touched another girl, when he had *** with her. I know I am worth more than the lies he told me and the weak excuses. I deserve someone who will love me as much as I love them and he wasn't it. It's taken me a long time to realize this. But it isn't him. No matter how much I wanted it to be. He never loved me as much as I loved him, that much I knew, even from the beginning.