It's been...
Almost a month. To the day.
I've given it up. I can't do anything.
It feels like I lost him, like he's dead, gone, non-existent. And I can't bring him back because I don't have the power to do that. I'm not capable of resurrection.
There's only one who can do that. It's in His hands. If He wants to bring my love back from the dead and back to me, then He will.
Otherwise, I move on.
I go forward.