Jan 2017
Dear Randy,
What the ****? Why do you consistently continue to **** your life up over and over again!? Why do you choose to talk to all these crazy broken women, knowing it will always end badly? Do you really hate yourself that ******* much? Or because you're crazy too?
Is it the loneliness or the worthlessness? The boardroom or the cabin fever? Your mom's overdose or childhood horrors? Or is it the simple fact that you just LIKE to get ****** up? And since the world is ****** up too, you use that as an excuse to USE... citing that it's all just too much for you...
Because you are a little *****!
You have no excuse for the drinking,. You started young, you liked it, and never wanted to stop. So you just didn't. And now, 15 years of hell later, your mind is losing itself, turning whatever pseudo-intelligent person you used to be into a mush-brained-narcissistic-soapbox-ranting and complaining *******.
Oh and let's not forget! Your lies... Creating stories at times that are fairly large lies that affect you and other people, just for the rush of using your mind pulling all that off, to get that person to believe you. And you maintain the lie. Often times these lies are to garner sympathy of some sort. Still, others are self depreciating, which is strange. ******* ******. Attention *****. Self-seeking self loathing self-centered self-destructive stupid selfish *******!
You need to somehow find your big boy boots so you can finally climb out of that little fantasy world you have been sheltering yourself from the storm with. And then you can see that everyone is in the same ******* storm. Grow up, grow a pair, and start doing your ******* job and help people, ****.
Sincerely ******* always,
Yourself
What the ****? Why do you consistently continue to **** your life up over and over again!? Why do you choose to talk to all these crazy broken women, knowing it will always end badly? Do you really hate yourself that ******* much? Or because you're crazy too?
Is it the loneliness or the worthlessness? The boardroom or the cabin fever? Your mom's overdose or childhood horrors? Or is it the simple fact that you just LIKE to get ****** up? And since the world is ****** up too, you use that as an excuse to USE... citing that it's all just too much for you...
Because you are a little *****!
You have no excuse for the drinking,. You started young, you liked it, and never wanted to stop. So you just didn't. And now, 15 years of hell later, your mind is losing itself, turning whatever pseudo-intelligent person you used to be into a mush-brained-narcissistic-soapbox-ranting and complaining *******.
Oh and let's not forget! Your lies... Creating stories at times that are fairly large lies that affect you and other people, just for the rush of using your mind pulling all that off, to get that person to believe you. And you maintain the lie. Often times these lies are to garner sympathy of some sort. Still, others are self depreciating, which is strange. ******* ******. Attention *****. Self-seeking self loathing self-centered self-destructive stupid selfish *******!
You need to somehow find your big boy boots so you can finally climb out of that little fantasy world you have been sheltering yourself from the storm with. And then you can see that everyone is in the same ******* storm. Grow up, grow a pair, and start doing your ******* job and help people, ****.
Sincerely ******* always,
Yourself
